life of firefly

it’s amazing how things turn out, this event made me realize even more that
things do happen for a reason and there are timing for everything.
of course with the help of someone up there, that remembers me, yay!! =)
as i look at the big picture, i see where it’s heading,
not so clear but far enough for now, and few years ahead.
and jolly it looks so good. i need to keep it up and maintain.

i recently went through some rough ride and it made me even more humble.
not to mention that there was momentary excitement of stupidity involved. XD
for example… yelling, singing, jumping around on the bed and being silly, enough said.
all these experiences and the wisdom that i learn makes me more mature.
i see that i AM getting old… or aging… whichever that sounds more distressing.

this consciousness of self teaching  and being able to actually see myself learning
from it is priceless. i feel like giving myself a pat on my back saying "you did good Ben".
now that things are better, i need to follow up on it and maintain my status which is
harder than progressing if you actually thing about it.

Ben!! you…you’re good. really good. no… no…. you’re good. believe it!! smile!! XD
 

lemons that the life throws at us in this world we live in can be large or small,
sometimes overwelming, what it matters is that how we respond and react afterwards.
yes, the emotional feedback we get is what drives us or puts us in reverse gear, but
we tend to hold on to the comfortable yet familiar past and afraid of unknown future.
walking the path in the darkness not knowing where your next step will be……
we’ve fell before, countless times, and it hurts, yes it does…
but we learn something from it, conciously or not, and it’s priceless and valuable.
don’t question why it hurt so much, but ask why did i fell,
that’s when we realize what must be done for the brighter future.
count your blessings and envisage.

… you don’t know when it will start to fall,
is it the destiny of the rain to reach the ocean?
you don’t know if it will reach the horizon of the ocean,
when rain reaches the ocean, it becomes the life of many.
even though it doesn’t reach the ocean it becomes the life of many.
…people come and go, even though it’s been couple minutes, few hours…
they leave a trace of scent somewhere in the back of your mind…
with the flow of the time it evolves into something greater and unforeseen,
like the trees.
everything might work the way i want it to or not but i can’t control the destiny…
for i am in this world for reasons. until i find that reasons… i’m in search of happiness.